sayang

aku sangat mudah meyayangi perempuan. sifat sayang ini boleh menimbulkan rasa cemburu dalam hatiku walaupun aku tahu aku ini hanya sebagai seorang kawan. apabila perasaan sayang telah terbit dalam hati, kita mahukan segalanya yang terbaik untuk orang yang kita sayangi even in choosing friends. i don’t want my beloved friends to get together with ‘bad’ guys. i know that i’ve no right to judge people, but my first impression told me that. if they get together, i just can’t withstand it. it’s better for me to not see them by being alone and have some space to relax my mind. i trust my friends. i trust that they can take care of theirselves, but i just can’t trust the guys. i’m a guy and i know what guys thinking!

i never angry or hate my friends, but if they hate me because aku buat perangai, i don’t really care as long as i ask apology from them.

itulah… perasaan amat sayang akan orang yang aku sayangi kadang2 boleh menghancurkan hati dan perasaan aku.

i already knew from the start that we’re just friends, not more than that and even though aku sangat sayang mereka, aku tahu, suatu hari nanti mereka akan meninggalkan aku…

Amoi!Amoi!Amoi!

i don’t know since when i like Amoi (chinese girls) and i what’s the reason. is it because they are sexy? perhaps. or because of their colors? mm… maybe both sexy and color. they are sexy. yes, they are sexy with their attires - shorts, mini-skirts, jeans, tight shirts, dress, etc, their face - sexy eyes, sexy lips, long wave-curly hair. i think it’s not just that matters. every time i look at them, i feel like i want to grab,hug and kiss them. 

Right now, i want to have a special date with amoi.

Beautiful?

pehh…cun giler minah tu…
seksi siot…
kalo boleh, ko nak pilih yang mana satu…
dia tu asyik 2kar awek je…(if only)
etc…
tu lah yang orang lelaki selalu bualkan…(normally…but not me…buang masa je nak cakap pasal pompuan).
Aku tanya kat diri aku balik…
Cantik? Memang aku nk yang cantik…
Tapi aku tengok kat sekeliling aku semua pompuan cantik2.
Takkan aku nak semua…(hehehe..)
Mana boleh…aku bukan ahli Arqam or Rufaqa’
Lagi satu hal, aku suka dengar pompuan berbual pasal diri diorang…(aku curi2 dengar je la).
Macam2 diorang cakap…

Aku fikir punye fikir…dan dapatlah kesimpulan…
Sebenarnya setiap orang itu cantik…
maksud aku, setiap orang mempunyai sesuatu nilai dalam diri mereka yang dapat menyerlahkan diri mereka…
selain tu, diorang cantik/smart dengan cara diorang sendiri, tak perlu la nk jadi cam orang lain…APA KEJADAHNYE NAK JADI CAM ORANG LAIN…

My mind/heart always whispers to me…”you are smart as the way you are”

Susah Nye Nak Pilih…

aku ni sekarang tinggal setahun setengah lagi je nak habis belajar. pastu dah nak kerja. bab kerja n belajar ni pada aku ok la sebab insya ALLAH aku kene kerja ngan PETRONAS… tu aku kurang sikit risau nyer.

tapi yang aku agak risau adalah pasal KAHWIN… hehehe
kalau bab memilih jodoh ni aku agak lembab kalau nak dibandingkan dengan adik - beradik aku yang lain. kawan2 aku pun lebih advance…. hahaha (jangan ada yang perasan yer).

segan aku nak cakap,
tapi secara realitinye aku ni agak pemalu n segan…
aku tak pandai nak luahkan perasaan terhadap orang yang aku suka. aku rasa kaku n kekok. jantung berdegup agak kencang kalau orang yang aku suka berada berhampiran. nakper yer?
dah la tak nak luahkan, aku ni selalu memendam perasaan. teruk betul! tak gentleman ke aku ni?
aku seperti melepaskan peluang.
kalau analoginye kira macam ” striker that wasted his opportunity to score ”

tu satu hal,
pastu aku ni tak pandai nak pilih orang yang sesuai. huhuhu…
aku kalau boleh nak orang tu mak n ayah aku suka jugak.
tak nak la nanti mak n ayah aku tak senang nanti… hehehe

tu je la kot…
ni aku cakap betol2 ni…
bukan main2. ni pasal masa depan ni woi…
aku ni pun agak malu sebenarnye, tapi nakper aku confess kat korang hah?
malunye aku…

me @ konvo part 2

for the first month, i was still ok with konvo, but weeks later i couldn’t give my commitment to konvo. i was seldomly went to the office, and escape from meeting. i don’t know why? it looked like there was something separate me and konvo. things became complicated for me when the head called me over, and asked me if i’d problem. and again i don’t know what to say. after being advised, i was ok, but it happened again. what came accross my mind was only… I WANT TO QUIT! i can’t get along with other ajk. i feel lonely when i went to the office. i’d said to the head that i want to quit, but my request had been rejected. So, i continued as the member of konvo reluctantly.

me @ konvo part 1

it’s been so long since my last post, i think. this time i want to share with all about me and pesta konvo.

……….i’ve join the committee since my very first year in ukm. at that time i was only the ajkp. it’s only a little while i became the ajkp, and i really enjoyed myself. i met people and made new friends. after i entered new semester, i’d been offered a post as assistant of financial manager. i was stunned but yet very happy. never cross in my mind that i would become one of the high committe members.

LaSt NiGhT

Last night i have a very sad dream
in my dream,
my mom was crying
she’s been waiting for me for along time
but i never come
then
as i was on my way to my room
there was an announcement
”Attention to Muhammad Raqib please come to the department centre, your mother is waiting for you”
upon listening to that announcement,
i quickly ran to get my mom,
i don’t know how tell it in words
but
it was really touching me

after solat subuh this morning
i recalled that dream
and what happened here is
i cried

what i have done,
did i forger my family,
i asked that myself,

now i feel
like want to be by her side
i don’t want to make
her crying for me
i really love her
forever, eternally
even in the world hereafter

today is tuesdayne

today is a fine, funny, exhausted day for me.
my day start early at 6.30…
i really hope that it could be a better day.
everything seem to be alright until 10 a.m when i came in to lecture.
i start to feel sleepy…
i try to put my concentration on the lesson…
but it is hard…
after finish lecture,
i called my scholarship company, because there was no answer, i leave a message.
then, i went back to my room, watching one episode of anime just to rejuvenate myself from being sleepy but i failed again.
about 20 minutes from time for the next class at 12. i took a nap. i awoke when someone was calling me, my sponsor. he called me at about 11.52. it was a quite long conversation. the clock show it was already 12.05.
i’ve been late for 5 minutes.

then, i thinked, wore shoes or slipper.
without hesitate, i put on my slipper and rush to class.
the lecture has begun when i step in the room.
as i walk to my seat,
the lecturer stop his lecture and my other friends watch at me.
some of them laughing, smiling, etc.
when i’d my seat, the lecturer said to the audience,
‘kasut dia special sikit’…
then the students start laughing loudly.

you know why?
it’s because my slipper make noise.

you know what i do?
just have slumber face with no expression like there is nothing happen to the world.
i feel like a ’special’ person because everybody attracts to me for a while.
i think nobody had done this before in my class.
i’m the first i think.
ahahah

keberkatan rezeki dan ilmu

assalamualaikum w.b.t

bismillahirrahmannirrahim…

firstly i’ve to admit that i’m incomplete.

kita semua selalu berdoa supaya ilmu dan rezaki yang diperolehi mendapat keberkatan ALLAH s.w.t.

akan tetapi sejauh mana usaha kita ke arahnya.

semasa pensyarah mengajar di depah dewan kuliah,

kita sibuk ulangkaji, siapkan kerja, berbual, dll.

i admit that sometimes i feel sleepy during lectures,

but i’ve try my best to concentrate on the lecturers’ explanation,

because i know although i don’t even understand them, i’ve to try to concentrate.

the reason is i want to get the ‘keberkatan ilmu dan termasuk dalam senarai dalam doa pensyarah’.

this is only my view.

the other thing is ‘keberkatan rezeki’

do we realized what are we doing during exam?

try to cheat, copy answer, and other things.

do we know that our action can affect us one day?

let’s see

for example a person who always cheating during exam.

whether they succeed or not, they’ll get a permanent job base on their qualification and exam grade.

i want to ask do their ‘rezeki berkat’?

i should answer it NO.

kerana segala rezeki yang dia dapat itu berpunca daripada keputusan yang diperoleh dalam peperiksaan…

… dan semasa peperiksaan dia menipu dan selalu meniru.

adakah kita nak bagi makan kepada mak bapak, anak bini kita dengan rezeki yang tidak berkat?

orang2 selalu pesan TEPUK DADA TANYA IMAN jangan tanya selera kerana selera ikut nafsu.

kesimpulannya KAWAL NAFSU kita.

i know we all want a good result for our exam paper. i’ve to admit it.

but sometimes there is some questions we don’t know the answer, and we worried.

but what is our next step. STEP will determine our fate in the FUTURE.

for me if i don’t know the answer, be calm firstly, be patient and try to recall it back. baca SELAWAT.

if we still don’t get it what can we do.

remember SETIAP SESUATU YANG BERLAKU ITU PASTI ADA HIKMAH yang terselindung.

it doesn’t matter if i got low mark because it just NUMBER, and it is not more than just a variable depend on our EFFORTS.

ok then.

what are my thoughts about other people?

assalamualaikum…

bismillahirrahmannirrahim

setiap kali aku ke tempat baru aku selalu merasakan semua orang disekelilingku hebat2 belaka.

tak kisahlah hebat dari segi apa.

tapi asalkan mendatangkan faedah.

aku selalu meletakkan diriku di petak belakang sekali…

kerana aku merasakan diriku ‘is not good enough for that’

sometimes i’m jealous to someone who is better than me,

more skillful and have another specialties that i don’t posses,

but at last it seem alright for me because everyone has their own talent and ’special power’ right?

we, human is not perfect…

we need each other to make our life better.

about education, i always hope that someone is smarter than me,

who can ask question to the lecturer,

who can give opinion,

and anything that can make my mood at high level,

because when someone ask a lecturer about something they don’t understand,

i will try to listen carefully the lecturer’s explanation.

i love to listen.

because sometimes i don’t know what to ask…

and sometimes misread something.